There’s a conversation going on at Tom’s blog about whether weddings/marriage are really worth all the hassle. Since I’m completely unable to use Tom’s comment form from the office, I thought I’d post my little rant over here.
I’ve never really been a big fan of the idea that a wedding is supposed to be “All About Us.” It seems to me that when two people decide to commit their lives to one another, forsaking all others, as the vows go, that it’s a very public act that affects their roles in the community of family and friends to which they belong. It’s not just about the Two of Us, it’s about All of Us. In fact, the wedding liturgy of our church specifically includes a moment in which the minister asks the assembled community to stand and affirm that they will uphold and support the couple’s marriage, in recognition that their relationship exists in the context of that community, rather than in a vacuum.
So it was with that in mind when we started this whole planning fiasco that I resisted the idea of eloping- I wanted at least our close family present. And then we decided that we wanted our friends to be present as well. But we still didn’t want anything big or crazy- close family, a few friends, a relaxed celebration, some good food and a bit of wine, no big deal. No foofy snow beast dress, no prodigious wedding party (we have one attendant each!), just a little gathering of the people we love to celebrate a wonderful milestone in our lives as a couple. We had a modest budget in mind.
In support of this goal, we came up with several different plans that would have worked perfectly well, and would even have been within budget… except. The caterer for Glen Echo Park tried to rip us off. Ray’s isn’t going to open its banquet facility in time. The Boulevard is already booked. The backyard isn’t big enough to host even the family, let alone the friends.
It’s not like we were even asking for that much. I’ve been repeatedly asked if I was sure I wasn’t just settling for less than what I want for the sake of money. We weren’t. We cut out all the details we really didn’t care about so that we could focus our budget on the things that mattered. And yet, it still didn’t work. Are there other plans we could come up with and pull off in the less than two months that remain? Well, maybe. But frankly, we’ve come up with a lot of perfectly good ones and I’m a little tired of watching them come to naught.
So now, my dream wedding is Over. As in, what I really want is a wedding that’s already happened so we can get on with our married life. After all, most married couples I’ve talked to about it have told me that you really don’t remember much about the wedding itself. And I surely don’t want my only wedding-related memory to be how stressful and horrifying it was to plan the damn thing. But since I don’t possess a time machine, I’m starting to reconsider this All About Us idea as the best way to get what I want- which is a legal marriage without all this stupid stressful crap. Run away for a couple of days, sign the paperwork, exchange rings, and come back without the dark circles that have been developing under my eyes for the last few weeks?
Sounds better and better to me.